The Day I Cried
I was at camp during training week.
I took a CPR course.
I failed the test.
Though I thought I tried my best,
But maybe not.
I tried to call home collect.
The call wasn't accepted.
Did I dial the wrong number?
I don't know.
I do know I want to cry.
I do know I want to go home.
All I want to do is sit in my room away from it all.
I'm lonely yet I want to be alone.
What should I do?
I don't know that either.
Oh and by the way it's Wednesday.
Life for me
Life for me has never been easy.
For years I have tried to cover it up.
For years I've been depressed.
For years I've kept my feelings inside.
I let them all out on my family.
One day I decided I couldn't take it anymore.
On that very day a good friend told me,
I should write my feelings down as poems.
Even though this doesn't really rhyme,
I still consider it a poem.
Ain't it just Ironic
Ain't it just Ironic
That I would do something,
I promised myself I would never do.
The human mind is an interesting thing,
It can change from one thing to another.
Sometimes I wonder why I made the decision before,
When I didn't know enough to decide.
Lonliness
Why did they leave me here alone?
My family is here but it's just not the same.
Sometimes when I am around alot of people,
I still feel alone.
Sometimes I want to be alone,
Sometimes I don't.
Right now I feel like I need a friend.
Maybe I should call one on the phone.
I think I'll do that right now.
What is normal?
In my oppinion there is no normal.
Why do they talk about normal people on TV?
I just don't understand.
Normal shnormal what a stupid word.
No one is normal everyone has their own problems.
Some people seem to think that other people are normal,
But they aren't, no one is.
Life can be tough, just keep on living.
WHY?????
Why, when I get real upset, do I want to die?
Why, when something good happens that I waited for,
Am I not happy?
Why, do I feel alone, when people are all around?
Why, does my life treat me like garbage,
Just when I think everything is ok?
Why, did I find out my modem stopped working,
On the fourth of July?
Why, do people talk about being normal,
When there is no such thing?
Why, do the doctors make my best friend sick,
When he's supposed to be better.
Why do I sometimes hate my life?
Why do things happen the way they do?
Why is there such a word as why?
Why, why, why?
Something has changed
I noticed today something has changed.
It was me.
I am still me but different.
I am not a kid anymore.
I still act crazy sometimes but it's different.
I have realized In a few days I will be at College.
Life will be harder yet it will be easier and more fun.
Things will be very different yet the same.
I'm scared yet I'm not scared.
I guess I will just see what happens when it happens.
I miss my family
I miss my family so much I want to cry.
I'm at College now. Life is better yet not.
Sometimes I'm glad I'm here.
Sometimes I'm not.
I have already decided what's best for me.
This is it.
I miss my friends back home so much I want to cry.
I have new friends but it's just not the same.
Oh well, Such is life.
Life RAWKS!!!!
Things have DEFFINATLY changed.
I am happier than I have ever been.
I have friends that actually pay attention to me.
Not that many of my friends back home didn't.
I have a sister now too!
I love it here at College!
Life for me couldn't be any better.
Another very special person
Another very special person entered my life
She loves me like a brother.
She loves me like a friend.
She has made a difference in my life,
Just by being there
She's a poet like me.
The Rockies
Being in Colorado was alot of fun.
Though the altitude was high for me.
In a way I wish it didn't end.
Oh well, I know I'll see those Maniax again,
Though it may be a while.
Until then I'll see them On-line
At Home
I missed my bus today so I stayed home another day.
Being at home without my computer can get very boring.
Especially since I can't chat with my on-line friends,
Or send them e-mail.
My mother has a computer but I broke it.
I'm ready to go back to school, yet I want to stay home.
I love it here, Yet I love it there.
I have many friends here.
I have friends there too.
Oh well, I'll just wait for the bus tomorrow!
Shanie, my, Shanie
Shanie, my, Shanie I love her so much.
She brought something to me I thought I had lost.
Happiness is the word Happiness is the thing.
I think about her all the time.
I couldn't sleep last night because I miss her so much.
Shanie, my Shanie she loves me so much.
We both knew since we first met that we were special.
There's not much else I can say.
I just can't say how much I truely feel in words.
Just being me
Just recently I found out
People actually notice my kindness
They can just sence it
I am who I am because of what I've been through
I have the ability to overcome adversity
I can fight my own fight
I would do anything for anyone
Especially my friends
Even give my life for them.
You know some people say "Nice guys finish last"
My response "and your point is?"
Just one of those days?
I am a little bit sad.
A little bit angry.
A little bit scared.
And totally confused.
It's my first day back.
And boy was it a mess.
Bad luck, bad luck and more bad luck.
Oh did I mention bad luck?
Oh great now I think I'm running a fever.
Shane!
Shane is very special to me.
She helped me out alot.
She gave me my self confidence back,
And I thank her for it.
I miss her when she's not around.
She's there for me when I need her,
That is if she possibly can be.
WHY????? Part II
Why, when I got depressed today,
Did Shane threaten to break up with me?
Why, when my friends have problems.
Do they drag me into them?
Why, did so many people around here,
Have a bad day?
Why, when I am depressed,
Can I not explain why?
Why, do I get depressed,
In the first place?
Why, do some of my poems,
Look totally stupid and pointless to me?
Why, am I even writing this,
In the first place?
Why, am I asking stupid,
Pointless qustions?
Why is there such a word as why?
Why, why, why? I miss you like crazy
When your not around
I miss you like crazy
I miss the sound of your voice
I miss the smile on your face
You are the love of my life
My one and only
You took my heart
I took yours
When your not around
I miss you like crazy
The Funniest Blocker
My grandfather will be missed,
Granddad as I called him.
He is not gone,
He is watching over me.
He loved crossword puzzles,
And word searches.
He loved the environment around him.
He loved to sing funny songs,
And tell funny stories,
He never met a word he didn't like.
Atleast he's not in pain anymore,
And doesn't need a cane anymore.
No matter what, I'm lucky
No matter how bad things are,
No matter how bad things have been,
No matter where I'm going,
No matter where I've been,
No matter what I did yesterday,
No matter what I did today,
No matter what I'll do tomorrow,
I'm lucky to have the life I have,
I'm lucky to have the family I have,
I'm lucky to have the friends I have,
I'm lucky and glad to be me.
Homesick, why me?
For some strange reason
I get homesick even more often now
I miss my family very much,
I miss my friends as well.
I miss my dog, Big Red.
I miss going to free movies with Andy.
I miss going places with Mike and Ryan.
I miss my waterbed.
I miss the couches and the big screen TV.
I miss everything about home!
Relationships
Good ones, bad ones, I dunno ones.
Relationships can be tough.
No matter whether it's with a friend,
Or a girlfriend or boyfriend.
Relationships can teach a lesson,
They may end one day.
You can learn from them,
And be a better person for it.
Updated Sunday August 15, 1999 4:23 PM EST
